Now, it may seem to you that I’ve got it all together.
…pause for laughs…2…3…
I seriously don’t have it all together, but I do have a much better grip on something that gripped me for years. Anxiety.
I didn’t even know it had a name until I was diagnosed by my physician as having high anxiety about four years ago.
I used to worry so much.
I worried about all my past fuck ups, and the murky, unknown future. I worried so much that I worried about how much I worried. I stressed myself out of many nights of sleep and, in many cases, stopped eating.
It made me sick and messed with my sense of self, and I do not want that for you.
Did I mention how few of the things that I worried about actually came to be?
But that doesn’t matter. If you’re in a state of high anxiety, the unlikelihood of what you are worrying about actually occurring offers very little solace.
The one thing that did save me, after a lot of trial and error (and a brief time on medication) was mindfulness.
There’s all sorts of research and many studies that have been performed by lots of brilliant minds, which prove the validity of mindfulness as a practice.
For me though, it’s the case study of my own life that really converted me to mindfulness as a practice.
I read Eckhart Tolle’s book, A New Earth and found his style didn’t suit my taste (his writing is aggressive, but his speech resembles a cartoon sloth. Go figure). His message did resonate though. He’s talking all about this beautiful present moment.
In this moment, I’m standing in my sunny kitchen, with a cup of lukewarm coffee, and nowhere to be for several hours. Everything is just fine and dandy.
Sweet friend, I’d love for you to come back to what you’re doing in this exact moment. What are you feeling? What’s touching your skin? What does this moment smell like? Taste like?
Anxiety rips you from this moment and distracts you from your dreams. It tells you that if you worry enough, you can stave off the flood Click To Tweet
Anxiety rips you out of the present moment and distracts you from your big, beautiful dreams by telling you that disaster is imminent and if you just worry enough about all of the possibilities, you can stave off the flood.
Which, of course, you can’t.
For me, Yoga and Meditation were my two BFF’s when it came to shaking off anxiety. Don’t get me wrong. I still argue with imaginary people in the shower (just me?) or in the middle of the night when I should be enjoying the brief hours of rest before my son wants to nurse yet again.
However, I now have a concrete practice that I can use when my poor, little brain starts to get the better of me.
I’ve recorded a short meditation for you to try out, in the hopes that it will help alleviate even five minutes of anxiety for you and give your brave heart a little rest.
The longer the gap you can create between your anxious thoughts, the more you begin to trust that the worst is, in fact not about to happen (or that if the worst is about to happen, you can’t worry it out of existence and you may as well do your best to enjoy the moment in which you are actually living.)
From my (slightly) anxious heart, to yours’,
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